Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Recent Stresses?



I have been thinking quite a lot recently, and I am not sure why, I can’t seems to control my own mind. It keeps thinking and thinking till the point that I can’t get to sleep at night. I slept at 3.30am last night, not really a good thing though. 

Trapped at home as usual and never get a chance to hang out with my friends lately. Jack’s surprise birthday celebration, Sherry’s farewell outing, a friends reunion dinner, June’s gathering plan and so on, I have been rejecting all sorts of activities and events planned by my friends, and I can bet they are all mad at me for not attending.

I don’t have a choice to make, my mom prefer me to stay home. Confronted her yesterday and (unwillingly, I can feel) she asked me to go out with my friends after me rejecting everyone. So I ended up going nowhere. Bah, I need to freaking forget about it! 

Things I thought it has already ended, always appeared without prior noticing, it just pop out like that! And now, I am having a few things on my shoulder giving me unwanted stress. I want to be alone now!!! All these stresses, makes me feel like procrastinating it day by day, but something can’t be dragged too long, otherwise unwanted problem will occur, and I don’t want to be the person to be blamed off. 

I hate stresses! But I suppose people grow mature after facing them, don’t they? 

I have been sleeping quite late recently, all because of my stupid brain thinking lots of nonsense stuff, don’t ask me what was I thinking about as I never register whatever I thought of. It’s just like I think about it now and forget about it 5 seconds later, lame right?

I had this disturbing dream few days ago. The dream was about how I escaped from some danger, and need to face with lies, SARS disease, and lots of terrible problem, and at the end, when I managed to overcome all these freaking stupid horrible problems, and thought I am finally safe from all sort of disasters, only realized that I am lock in this freaking space with 2 freaking psycho madman and madwoman who successfully lured us to this psychotic space, just to kill us in a very horrible way! I was so helpless in the dream, until I was killed! What the heck?!

Guess I am too stressed up.

8 inner voice(s):

TZ said...

Dude, what r u stress about ? anyway, chill and take it easy... don't stress out with unnecessary stress... need to start manage your stress...

Do you know u could transfer stress out to another party? kekeke...

raeshad said...

interesting dream xD

justin.net said...

Try calling friend/s before bed, a small chat might help. It works for me~

*Anton* said...

Sulking at home only makes things worse. Why think of all the negativities? Please transform your mind, to think how blessed you already are to have a roof over your head, and people around who are concerned for your wellbeing. Rambling a lot here, but hey, we all care, right? Cheer up dude! ^_^
+Ant+

alexio said...

LOL ! You stress what jek? one more year then u'll be going overseas liao...that woud be something worth waiting :D i've been there done that, same situation as u....chill k?

if u have anything do contact gor as usual k?

flying within a few hours already....take care yea? reach d msg you =) hugs!

samanthacje said...

it's holiday and ur stressed? tsk tsk go on facebook! it'll make u very very veryyy happy! haha

Ahmike said...

Why Stress? Simple thing sudah stress macam mane dengan bigger task?

Anyway, take heed of mama's advice. One day, you leave her to go afar, you will understand the feeling of missing home

rae/raeshad/adirae said...

omg...ah mike's totally rite....

absence makes the heart fonder xD